I’ve been working towards my promotion in my current position while also keeping in mind the direction that I would like to go in with Amazon. I miss development, and I’d like to make my way back into that world. I’ve been talking with some SDEs, and today I had the pleasure of connecting with an SDE who is transitioning into a FEE position.
After logging offline at 7:00, I quickly checked our internal job posting list and found one FEE position available here in Portland. I started thinking about all of the things I would need to gather in order to get an internal application together. I decided to go check my Github to see what it looked like.
SAD. It looks very SAD. I have been so busy working on learning all things for my new job that I have been neglecting much outside of that. All my time spent learning tech has been focused on AWS services and how they work together. I decided to click on my first big project that I worked on by myself.
JOY. I felt JOY while looking over this project as I looked at the code. I know it’s not the prettiest and I know there’s always room for improvement, but man it felt good to see something that I had built. I remember working on the project in bootcamp and being ecstatic about finally getting to put all the pieces of the puzzle together for JavaScript.
Every time I’m hit with imposter syndrome, I question why I feel that way. I’ve proven to myself that I can learn and I can code; however, when looking at the job descriptions I’m immediately put into that state of “what about this, what about that, I still need to learn this.” I’m learning that my standards of myself are pretty unrealistic. I hope that one day I can pull the trigger on applying for a position where I’m able to get back into coding.
In the meantime, I’ll keep learning in the role that I have or the next role that I achieve. There is so much to learn in tech, and no learning is ever wasted even if it feels like I’m slipping farther away from my original goals.
That’s all for now. See you guys soon.
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